#but for ME

[eh-33]

I need Evan Buckley to be romanced. I need him to be a stuttering mess, acting like he’s never been woo’d before. I need to see him nervous and gain confidence in dating men.

Buck deserves this after all the relationships he’s had where he feels he needs to better himself to deserve his partner.

I want there to be at least a few episodes of him and Tommy together so that Bucks bisexuality can be an individual character story and not something linked to buddie.

Because honestly buck being bisexual matters more to me than Buddie being canon, so I would rather them honour this storyline and do it as well as they can than use it as a stepping stone to buddie and rush it.

Coming out stories where there is no angst and just the road to understanding themselves is not shown enough and 9-1-1 has an opportunity to show a man in his 30s discover himself with no (real) drama and just loving acceptance from his family.

[fizzigigsimmer]

We will never meet preseason 1 Steve. But I say, let him be a bitch. Let him be mean. Fill in all those blank spaces the Duffers left in his past with parties, weed, and hookups with girls he can't remember the names of. Let him have scratched their names in bathroom stalls with disdain while skipping class. Let him have real shit to regret. Broken hearts and shattered dreams, and eyes that glare after him with real hatred that brand him: ASSHOLE. Let him deserve it. Let him disrupt the class! Let him terrorize teachers with a sharp tongue and shitty attitude. Let him be funny! Let him be cool! Let good girls like Nancy & Barb love to hate him and hate that they love him. Let him be savage! And let it all bore him to tears as he searches for something that means anything. Let him be lost so that it means something when he finds himself in our stories.

[bryonyashley]

[kiankiwi]

I am not having a good day. Gonna try and write to calm down while I listen to angry music

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[izayoichan]

*wings flutter as soft feet with slightly sharper claws land on his unprotected shoulder.* "Figured I would find you here." "I'm a simple man, it's not hard." "What's on this simple man's mind?" "New adventure... new lands, a whole new part of the world." "And" "Do you think it will be a good adventure?" "Yes" "Me too."

(It's odd to have Mako without his mods, but patch day means that happens... I was just sitting there, and the idea came into my mind and here we are.)

[pensat-i-fet]

When you wake up and remember it's matchday 🤗

[yourmoonmomma]

Jayson & I watched Barbie last night. I thought it was a silly lil movie, one of the ones where you can laugh and cringe about the over the top relatable experiences.

But Jayson CRIED at the end?!?! And then I go online and a LOT OF PEOPLE ARE CRYING?!? And talking about how it hit em in the mommy issues department, or reminded them of the mother-daughter connection?!?!

All this movie taught me is that my job should also be Beach. I think my mother fucked me up in a way different way than some of these Barbie girlies moms did.

[halfdeadwallfly]

🌻

heyy!!!!!!! Ok so I promised acappella (did i? .... eh) so! I'm basically gonna take this as my chance to rant about my group and my friends <3333 (if this does end up being too annoying, genuinely i'm sorry, i just get excited abt it too much and i like talking abt it l o l )

ok so BASICALLY i am in this acappella group at my school, and we have 13 different ones so some of them have different themes so my group does music from movies, tv series, video games, and musicals [AND!!!!!!! something i recently proposed----- podcasts hehehehehhee bc i have sooooooooo many podcast song suggestions for our rep] anyway there's like 18 of us and it's really fun and everyone is just so lovely and kind. (i promise i'm not gonna talk abt everybody, just the ppl i'm like closest with)

the person who's probably the closest friend i've made so far in college is also an alto, and i love her so much, she's so wonderful. she's sort of boisterous and really caring and a very good actor. she's super nice just to chill with, and at the same time it's always so much fun talking to her. once at rehearsal during an audition i was having a tic attack and she noticed what was going on and said that she could help me out if i needed it, which was so weird but nice bc most of the time when i'm having tics, ppl aren't mean exactly but they definitely don't really know what's going on. she also has an AMAZING singing voice, and she did a killer solo on I'm Still Standing our first semester there. she's just so beautiful and the kind of person that you feel comfortable around just by the way she is

when i was running for music director, there was another freshman that was running for the job as well, which was stressful but also-- really so cool, bc she's so smart and talented and experienced, and so vibrant like just as a person too. she also has a killer singing voice (ofccccc) and the most expressive, commanding performance energy. when the rest of the group was discussing who they wanted to vote for (our group in particular amongst the thirteen is infamous for discussions) we were both super nervous!! and hanging out in the hallway talking about our goals for the group, and we both have so many of the same ideas about stuff like vowels and dynamics and like general technique, it's just been so exhilerating to get to talk to her and know her! i really hope that in the next election she runs again so we can work together officially!!! she's also an artist and her art is so good :DDD

ok last person i'm gonna go in detail abt---- my co-md, who i actually did not really like when i joined the group. just sort of like did not vibe with him initially, but getting to spend more time with him i actually really do enjoy talking to him and hanging around, esp now that we're working together! it's been a stressful semester acappella-wise due to a sudden and weird resignation from our former long term md, but me and him preparing to take over now that our remaining md graduated, it's honestly just been so fun. he's so smart at music theory, and i feel like our different strengths just work really well together when we're leading. one of the things i was most stressed abt in becoming md was having to take charge, esp as an underclassman leading upperclassmen, but he's been so open to all my thoughts and suggestions, and whenever i'm feeling anxious abt getting people's attention or being too pushy, he makes sure everyone is on the same page, which i think is really nice. we had group karaoke once and we sang teenagers by mcr together lol

anyway so now i'm going into my first official semester as co-md with a killer new rep selection, with one song that i'm co arranging which is so exciting!!!!! i just really love everyone i've met in acappella and every bit of music we've put together.

[oddlittlestories]

I’m very limited in the house mv edits I’m allowed to watch bc I am so tempted to make them and

I could spend 3+ weeks making one

Or three weeks making 3-6 fanfic chapters

[tokiwigiwi]

Togiri for me is a many, many sided relationship. I see them as platonic, romantic, sexual, and even hateful sometimes, but above all they have this deep intrinsic understanding of each other. They recognize that there is no-one else who could understand them as truly as the other understands them. They recognise so many parts of themselves in the other, for better or for worse. They hate to see their flaws reflected back at them, but they also have great empathy when it comes to the other's struggles, which is a lot for them. Once they recognise this they anguish about how they've only just met now, but are grateful to have even met in the first place.

[arise-children-angel-is-here]

TW: I felt silly <3

*shrugs*

I felt like that at that moment okay....

*(played around with Tumblr tools)*

[vilintux]

OMG OMG OMG OMG IM SO HAPPY RN!! @stupidgayfish DREW WALTER AND IM LITERALLY CRYING 😭♥♥

[brindlestorm]

MY MOM SAID I NEED TO BE ABUSED

Context in the tags

[anxiously-going]

I love learning things about myself via fandom musings.

I was all set to put out my complicated feelings on Autistic!Spock, because I do have complicated thoughts and feelings and just personally, I find it so much more compelling if he's just Like That. He's human and Vulcan. And it's the fact that he's both, and trying to find his way in what that means, that's he's like that.

And that's when it hit me. I belong to a blended family. I grew up surrounded by the Mexican-American culture I felt I wasn't ever allowed to participate in because I was cast off by my Mexican-American family. I grew up, being correctly identified by my appearance as being of Naitive American, Mexican, and Jewish descent.

But feeling like I was not allowed to participate in any of it because the family I was raised in was white. Feeling like I couldn't even entertain the idea of looking into learning how to be able to participate in these cultures because of the family and culture I was raised in.

I have recently left the environment I was raised in, and I'm realizing, I am not bound by only the culture I was raised in. I am allowed to explore the culture of my ancestors. Those cultures are also part of my heritage.

And I have to wonder if Spock didn't feel the same going from Vulcan to Starfleet Academy. Raised so wholly in a Vulcan environment with such limited access to his Human heritage and culture, raised to feel like it was not something truly meant for him.

There is, in my mind, many instances, of Spock denying his human nature in favor of his Vulcan nature simply because that's what he was taught to do, even when he wants to lean into his Human nature.

It was very inadvertent in my case and came from multiple directions, (the amount of times I was met with Shock when I told people about my Hispanic heritage because I have blue eyes is...uncomfortable) but I do think that has deeply influenced my veiw of Spock and why I find him to be compelling as a character without adding to him.

It is my own issue, but I do think at times the concept of Spock being autistic takes away from the internal conflict of him being both Vulcan and Human, of him being of a blended cultures and being denied participation in something that should have been accessible to him as his heritages. To me, it creates a much more compelling story if he just is who he is as the product of uneven blended cultures without anything else there.

[krakenshaped]

When this migraine passes. Oh when this migraine passes. I'm gonna draw the boombox scene from Say Anything (1989) but heroshipping. That will be me. I will draw that.